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A mind traveller. Pretty much an abstract and eccentric human being. But overall, a human panda who embraces food as a hobby.

Friday, December 28, 2012

Au revoir

I thought sometimes you walked away. You carry some of my memories.
But I'm wrong.
You stop by once in a while.
I still cry that one tear. Thinking how foolish I am to fall that deep.
When you just came by and went away.
I still see Mr Mars. The same way I used to see him
That glimpse. and pieces of heart breaks away.


But I tell myself. A person's presence either a blessing or a lesson.
So you came by for a lesson for me to learn.
au revoir.

p/s: the pieces of puzzles left unsolved

Thursday, December 27, 2012

4 more days till 2013!

I am excited for 2013! Yes yes I am. Why?
I'm not afraid to get a year older.
I'm excited to see what is in store for me
I'm finally in my final year of undergraduate! 
and anddd
I'm not alone :) I am never alone.

What matters is. I have a whole new life experience to face. In a new perspective. Let's see what life has in store for me yeeah?

Let's stuuu... no. procrastinate. Now.

Masih tak usik buku untuk revision final ni. Rasa macam dah cuti. Jadik macam mano?

Level of procrastination detected?
HIGH. EXTREMELY HIGH

okay. ain't funny nemore

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Papers come and go ke?

So. Mother just reminds me of exams. *yang hampir hampir ku lupa*

I have six papers to sit for.
Let's see.

i) Arabic Level 6 - 29th December (Saturday)
ii) Bahasa Melayu Kerjaya - 30th December (Sunday) *alohai. Sunday -_- ticked off*
iii) Semantics - 5th January (Saturday)
iv) Journalism & English Academic Writing - 6th January (Sunday)
v) Discourse Analysis - 10th January (Thursday)

Well that's goodbye to my two weekends. But hey. It's okay i guess. One must not whine. Well... pasti boleh! Insya Allah :D

Come to think of it I'm entering my final year ! TIME PASS BY SO FAST. must make use of it while am still young. Gitew. soooo Let's prepare exam! But for now. let's rest :p

p.s: Last minute la ni en cita dia?

When there's down, there's always up

Salam readers! :) 
It feels good to be typing here back. TADAAAAAAA! Here I am! 

Wah. Tak payah nak tadaa sangat la kan. Kalau sebenarnye tengah blog bawah selimut. *sniffs*
Yes. Tidak baik lagi demam. Sejak dari hari rabu aritu. Sampaikan terpaksa skip last class on wednesday. Lagi2 kelas arab. mohon ampun ustaz! haih. 
Mula2 mengeluh la juga sebab sakit dalam timing yg salah. Astaghafirullahalazim. Teruk kan pikir cmtu? Tapi lepas da berfikir, baru teringt, setiap apa yg datang, walupun sakit, ini suma dugaan Tuhan. Dia takkan memberi dugaan ini kalau Dia tahu hambanya tu tak mampu nak bawa.


“Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya..” (2:286)

I bet semua pun tahu pasal ayat ni kan ? So for a while, terfikir memang setiap dugaan yang datang tu ada hikmahnya. Jadi, jangan mengeluh, tapi minta di perkuatkan diri to go through all the tough moments. Insya Allah. Allah akan sentiasa tolong. :) 
So for the past *mula mengira jari* 3 days, I've been sick, dengan adanya last assignment to be presented on Friday. Last pula tu. Alhamdullilah. Berjaya juga lepaskan semua dengan baik. Untung sangat ada groupmate yg awesome utk subject Journalism. Jadi semuanya jadi mudah. Indeed mmg betul la kita mampu kan :) Allah percayakan kita, tapi kita sendiri tak percaya dengan diri kita. So Alhamdullilah sangat everything went well. Plus, dalam 3 days ini juga, ada la menda yg terjadi. Tapi benda ni mulanya to me, was like scary la kan. (maaf tak dapat nak kongsi apa dia)
Tapi sebabkan perkara ni, memang membuka mata dan minda Shaf. 

Okay so motip di sini, Shaffy. What la are you trying to say?

Yes. motipnye, for everything that you go through, no matter how rock solid came across your way. Mungkin susah. Tapi lepas kita duduk dan berfikir, setiap apa yg datang. Semuanya bersebab. Jadiknya. Jangan cepat mengeluh. Jangan cepat gelisah. Turn to Him. Insya Allah. Dia ada di sisi. Dia selalu ada. Cuma kita kadang2 lupa nak lari kat Dia. See how much Allah sayangkan kita? Alhamdullilah. Despite the rock solid moments I went through the past 3 days. There was a good reason behind this. jadi, saya tak patah harapan. Instead mencari usaha nak stand up and go through it. So here I am. Sharing what I went through (well tak semua in details la kan) with you. :) 
Sebab Shaf tahu. ada yang kat luar tu mencari2 cara nak bangun kalau ada dugaan melanda. Don't worry. I know. I'm with you. And mind you, You are never alone (wah da cm Liverpool plak) not because I'm here, or anyone around have similar probs to you. tapi Allah sentiasa ada. Just have to remember him. Sebab dia tak pernah lupa pada kita. :) Jadiknya. I left you with this 



“Kerana sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan, sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan.”(Surah al-Insyirah: 5-6)

Jadi jangan la terlalu sedih ya! I'll see you soon readers <3 Mucho love la cita dia kan :p Pray for me to be all hip on two feet! I have finals coming soon EEKKK! 

p/s: I'm lucky to have someone beside me that always remind me to be the best for Him. :)

Sunday, December 16, 2012

When one moves from words to...tabs?

Salam semua! 

So. Where was I again. Oh yes. I have one final assignment to be done. To be presented on Thursday and to be submitted on Friday. Instead, what did I do?

a) Played World of Warcraft: Frozen Throne 
My childhood computer game. Yes. You read it right, and I type it right. My childhood game. After years of abandoning this game (which I shouldn't have abandoned it at all. Forgive meeeee. It was the growing up. and I got carried away. Okay drama di sini) I finally have it here in my lappie. So I got a lil weeeeeeeee carried away. Excited la katakan

b) Scrolled through 9gag. 
Yes. I abandoned this. for this semester. I have no idea why I did that. MAAF LA. Busy sangat. T_T 
Tah busy apa pun tak tahu. 

c) Tweet tweet di Twitter
Alahai. Standard la kan. Kalau bukak words, tak bukak twitter. Macam tak real je. 

d) New Girl 
Watched 2 episode of New Girl. I love Nick and Jess! I am still at Season 1. Nak buat camno. baru terkial nak sambung balik.

e) Blogger.
Blogging. Yes. Aku meratapi ketensionan. Di blog sendiri. Pastu japgi aku jaja kat twitter. Nak cari readers. Gitew. Ayat rasa cm nak buang diri dari tingkat 4 mahallah ni.

Dan itu la dia apa yg dah terjadik. Sepatutnye. dari dua jam lalu. Microsoft words ni, da berjalan.
Instead yang hado ni je :


Mampu? Memang budak benl ni suka buat keje last minute kan? Mampo la cmni. Boleh mati taw. Nasib baik lah tinggal setahun lagi nak degree. But I know I will miss this undergraduate years. A lot. But hey. life must go on. Okay. Nampak tak aku merapu da boleh lari topik? Kalau la. KALAUUUU LAH. aku boleh type panjang cmni untuk paper journalism.
Paling tak suka benau la kalau nak written assignment ni. Bagi presentation, mampu lagi. Written?
Pengsan dulu. Bangun balik pun belum tentu dapat siap on the dot. Hai. Okay. Balik semula kepada. Microsoft Words. AYUH! *tukar tab pergi 9gag balik* Once am done with my scrolling. Mehehheheh. Okay bai. Kalau masih buntu, japgi ada la post lagi.

Oh oh ! and tahniah buat blogger, Kak Maria Elena (wah. pakai kak. macam kenal sangat kan) dan suaminya Asfirdaus! :) Semoga bahagia dengan Dato ye Kak Maria ! Am so happy for you! Suka sangat tengok orang kahwin. Jeles, bukan jeles apa, mahu juga tersenyum ceria sebegitu. Tersenyum bersama pasangan yang dah sah dan halal. Paling penting, melangkah ke alam baru. Gitew. Aih. Mengeluh sahaja dahulu. Nanti sampai la masa buat saya, ye tak gitu awak? (eh?) :p

Been following her instagram for updates on her wedding since yesterday! So sapa nak tahu updates wedding Maria Elena. Boleh follow instagram dia, as tertera atas tu nama dia :D I loveeeeeeeeee wedding pictures! Cantiknya! 

Hahah sempat promo klan! dapat tengok sini je. Again congratulations! Semoga diberkati selalu oleh Allah. :) Mahu juga senyuman seperti itu! Aih. Akan tiba. Akan tiba :) jadik Ayuh. beralih ke assignment! Jumpa nanti and thank you for reading! 

p/s: Lagu time ni pula lagu yg berbaur ala2 wedding theme. Motif nak perli aku sangat kan. tet.

Saturday, December 15, 2012

Menanti bintangcraft II

My third day blogging, masih buntu. Menunggu Stracraft II jadik milik lapptop saya. Slow sunggoh. Ini la dia kalau takde unifi. Slow semuanya. Lupa pula rumah ini ada streamyx. Kene la bersabar.
Ye saya main Starcraft. Apa ada hal. tapi da berzaman tinggalkan. T_T rindu zaman muda. Okay tu je nak ckp. bai

Friday, December 14, 2012

When hope rises

Tadi, finally tengok Rise of the Guardians. I love cartoons. To be honest, memang favourite nak tengok, tapi tak banyakkan, cita cartoon yang betul-betul macam cartoon movie zaman dulu. My favourite will always be Disney Princess (duh, agak obvious la kan), and of course, Finding Nemo. I cried okay. And today, tgk Rise of the Guardians? Menangis sepanjang movie. Motip? Touching. I got sensitive throughout the movie. Despite the awesome (magadz-awesome-tastic-hot-drooling) voiceover casts. The best part of it, is definitely the message of the movie. Believing and hoping. Never ever stop believing. I felt what Jack Frost felt. No in fact, I still feel it. I understand the feeling. 

I work in a funny way. Well sebenarnye, sangat weird. Cita yang dah sah sah sedih. Mata tak nak menangis. Cita yang takde kaitan nak nangis (contoh: cerita katun ni) menangis tak sudah. Pergi bersama Abang Chelsea. Boleh dia kata kita pelik. But I told him. Mungkin pengalaman kita berbeza. Saya menangis sebab saya punyai perasaan yg similar to Jack Frost. I love to let people believe in hopes and not give up. Because I know the feeling of being down and no one is there to lift you up. That is why, the main reason I blog in the first place is to tell people they are not alone. I wish to tell people, that there is always hope in every darkness. That the good things always there if you believe in it. This case, it will be, Him :) Kalau kita percaya pada Dia, dan sentiasa berpaling pada Dia dan ingat pada Dia, dengan izin-Nya, we will always be grateful with what we have. So, some might not understand why I go all emotional la kan. But some do. So my never ending quest, is to inspire people with my words. So indeed I will :) Yang penting, cerita ini mantop. I love Sandman of all the characters, why? Tak bercakap pun, he still made me smile. He just express through his thoughts and that is enough to make him a strong character.

p/s: So she dreams again. Of her paradise. (tak sudah lagu ni)

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

She dreams of Para-Para

Current song on repeat : Paradise - Coldplay

Salam lovely readers. :)

So I've said. I will blog. So I shall. Tergerak nak blog pasal this song. Yep the song that I've typed above. I'm not a big fan of Coldplay to be honest, but I love their art and music. Every song they have are brilliant, can't deny that. I also love the fact that Chris Martin nyanyi LIVE, awesome shizz. Sounds so amazing, that I know, whoever pays so much for the ticket, it's worth every penny. Anyway, da terlari topik. I'm not here to praise Coldplay. They need no compliments from me, as they are amazing musicians. So I'm here to blog about this song.

I love the fact that despite the title named Paradise, the first thing that came into my mind is, something happy and calm. But the moment I heard the lyrics, funny how a beautiful masterpiece has a tragedy. Tertarik dgn lyrics lagu ni, especially this part, 

When she was just a girl she expected the world
But it flew away from her reach
So she ran away in her sleep and dreamed of
Para-para-paradise, para-para-paradise, para-para-paradise
Every time she closed her eyes

Basically the song goes about a girl that pictures a flawless world, only to find out that actually every piece of reality is flawed and imperfect. So, she finds escapism everytime she closed her eyes, and run to her paradise. Pretty much moved by the song. Through out me growing up, to me, life is pretty and flawless. Surprised me somehow, that even to give love and receive love is that hard. I lived a life where I would love to give love and receive love. I get sensitive over small things related to goodness. Baru semalam, I got all sensitive when I saw a video about people doing good deeds. Bukan la nak taching apa, but it's really nice to see there's still hope of goodness in everyone. Certain people, tak percaya when I told em, I'm the type that I don't run after money, or aiming a rich life or top at my career. Sebenarnye, I just want to live a life, whereby, I live a life of a mother to my joyful kids and a wife to my lovely husband. (Insya Allah) That is all I wanted in life. When I get that, Allah can take me away, as I lived a life of what I call peace here in the Dunia, enough for me to carry forward to the next life. (Insya Allah) But then again, who am I to say bila nak mati kan. Takdir, jodoh, hidup dan mati terletak pada Dia. Wah, cakap macam hebat sangat kan? Truth be told, I'm saying this not to impress anyone, but really this is what I feel. I saw how 'cruel' life can be. So I'm tired of chasing what everyone see with their own eyes, so I am chasing something people forgot to chase in the first place. Chasing what I called the eternal. Chasing peace that Allah has long promise to us.Only if we remember Him too.

Knowing myself, few years back. I wouldn't type all of this. But Alhamdullilah :) Here I am. I'm blessed each and every single day. I'm close and achieving peace through my own ways. I wish to share what I see with others. Tapi jujurnya, memang tak semua akan nampak la kan. But hey, at least, I speak for my part. So, this song means so much to me. 

Sebab dunia ni hidupnya memang penuh dugaan dan cabaran. It's the way we deal with it. Whether we find for His help or not. That stands to strengthen yourself everyday. So my Paradise? :) Stands with Him. And I hope to be better everyday. Insya Allah. Masih belajar lagi pun. So, pelan pelan la kita jalan ye dak? 

I think i better end this. It's long. Hahah. I'll think of more to post. I'm a bit rusty. But thank you people! 
May Allah bless all of you, no matter what shit you are going through, every single thing has a silver lining. Believe me. :)

Have a splendid 12/12/12.

Dua belas bermula.

Salam semua !
*disusuli crickets berbunyi. sebab. memang hado la hai readers nye*

Berhabuk sudah blog ni. Sumpah tak tipu lama dah tak merapu kat sini. Kalau merapu balik boleh tak?
I miss blogging wei. Dulu berjela lama boleh blog. Sekarang nak blog lima minit pun takde masa. (bajet bajet sibuk sangat) The thing is, even I'm not sure sibuk dengan apa sebenarnye. Gitew cite dia.
Jadi. Untuk 12/12/12. Si Sepinah nak buat keputusan untuk rajin memblogkan diri dan meh sini. Kita hias sikit blog ni. Ceria skit. Bertahun asyik muram je kan. Tak done juga. So welcome back, erm... readers? (hado ke?) I'll try my very best to blog back :) Okay. Sekarang post pendek je. Ada kelas skill ketuk kompang japgi. Jadi menyusul kemudian semua.

p/s: Rindunye tengok diri sendiri merapu. #eh (bajet twitter la tu)

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Hello life

Life comes in the most unexpected ways. So. Here goes to many more of the life that will come.
May it come in the most loveable way imaginable :)