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A mind traveller. Pretty much an abstract and eccentric human being. But overall, a human panda who embraces food as a hobby.

Monday, October 29, 2012

So where is it?

I am in a messed up state.
I'm not sure what is wrong actually.
One point I felt like it's okay.
Then came the fact. I can't go through it.
I'm lost

Friday, October 19, 2012

Mencari

It's not easy. It's not easy.
But it will be soon.
When will soon come?
Now for that. We have to wait.
I tell myself everyday. Eversince.

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Petrified

Today is the day I refuse to tell myself that I fall.
I fall hard.
Like the rain. My tears came flooding down. I tried to find every reason to feel sane. But everything shuts me down. I turned to words. The words that can comfort me. The words of mind that spill everything for me.
I was walking. Walking at a pace where every step of the way, I am smiling. Every step I take. I feel blessed. But yesterday, a moment came. You were running. I was left behind. You ran and I decided to ran with you. You told me you were with me. So I did. I ran. But as I ran with you. Your pace is faster. I followed through, but I fall somewhere in between. I hurt myself. I hurt and I fell.
That was yesterday.
It was yesterday.
But when I fell. I hurt myself.
The wound is still there.
Hurting me.
Like the rain.
I cry.

p/s: The song He Won't Go by Adele came to play. I hate that song more than anything right now.

Healer

I spill when I'm ill.
Words are my healer. They speak on my behalf.
They speak for me when I am numb.
They speak for me when I am in tears.
They speak for me when my mind has too much to say but mouth is closed shut.
They tell me things I never knew I could think of.
Words are strong.
Action is stronger
But on my behalf.
Words is not a weapon
Words is my healer.

p/s: I want to feel sane