Very much lovely isn't it?
Well I thought I was running away from something, but I was wrong, there was nothing to run away from. I guess I was scared to feel anything whether it's happiness or sadness. I just want to feel nothing. So when I thought that filling my life with work can make me feel more ignorant. I was wrong.
I start to care the reasons I went through that. The cause that have made me reach a point where I can't accept being in a state that involves me being ignorant.
and I think along the way, I built a wall, standing so tall and so strong, that I forgot to make a backup plan of how to destroy it, in case I didn't want it anymore.
So it stands there.
Life is not easy for me lately. So if I ever say no to many times to anyone, or went away from anyone.
It's not that I hate you or avoiding you
but I am kind of avoiding myself.
Funny how life can make jokes for you but you are not laughing.